Missing You

I miss my imagination world,
I miss my Imagination boyfriend,
I miss my imagination friend,
I miss when I not Cheppy But Vhi.

I miss all of my self in my imagination.
I miss all of the moment in my dream.
I miss all of the time with you my friend.
I miss the voice I hear and make me happy.

I miss when you hold my hand, Kevin.
I miss when you kiss my forehead, Kevin
I miss when you hug me, Kevin.

You never miss in my heart.
You never miss in my eyes.
You never miss in my mind.

You always I Hear.
You always I See.
You always I Think.

And, You always in my heart
although I can't see you normal life
although I can't met you in my real world.

It's okay if it only dream.
It's okay if it only false.
It's okay if it only a moment.

But, I was happy can love you.
I was happy when I thinking about you.
I was happy when I with you, although only in my dream.

First Pain in My Heart

Hay .... z long time no see u, long time no hear your voice and long time no talk to you although I can't see u but u always inside me, beside me, and always hear me. right now, I have problem my first problem make me confused, disappointed, angry, depressed, and etc.

I will tell u problem so please listen on me !!!

 

You know Z, until now in my 21 years old I don't know have I feel falling love or not but I just like someone love me so much and give me more attention, more love, and always hear me. In my case now, I found someone his name is Reza, he is my friends in my place (KKN) location. he always look at me, gave me more attention, gave me anything I want and always beside me. Actually I don't know what happen with him but I knew the truth. He likes me and he want to became my boyfriend but you know I never accept boy's confession so I decide to make a friendship with him but day by day I have feeling for him because he always followed me. that's make me confused and when I didn't see him I feel lonely. So like usual finally we became TTM or HTS.

 

I was happy with him, he always make me smile, laugh, and never sad. But, when we back to Makassar I knew that he has girlfriend but before we back to Makassar I make decision to end our relationship and became friend and he agree. We just a friend but his feeling for me can't change unlike me, right now I didn't have any feeling for him.

 

But when I know he has girlfriend in Makassar in his campus, I was shock really shock because he has told me that he had broke up with his girlfriend when he in (KKN) so I believed it. But his friends told me the truth and Ajeng his girlfriend name ask me about me and Reza. So I asked her that I don't have any relationship with reza and we just friend and she believe it.

 

But, the more pain for me is when I knew that Reza told Ajeng that only me like him and I always followed him when we are in KKN. That's hurt my heart but I told her the truth and she represented reza and said sorry.

I said that's no right there is mistake in our case but she won't listen me she only listen Reza, he was a big liar and I was shock knew the truth that Reza someone I believed and I used to like him did something painful to me. OMG, He is the first did it to me.

Make slander and I was the bad from this problem ...
But all of friend know which one right and which one just lie. ....

Actually I still angry and I hope I will not see reza again, never met with him again, and never hear his voice again. Although he made many good memory with me, he makes me smile and makes me believed him. heheheh .... What a amazing person ....

Big Liar and Good Friend which make injury in my heart ....

Makes me disappointed have met him, make a friend with him and make memory with him ...

But, beside that I know how pain someone heart when she/he know they partner lie or affairs them ...
A new problem, a new feeling, a new experience, and can make me more adult .....

See U Z, that's all for today ....

Miss U Z.....